February 2012
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hello followers;
if you don’t know, i am currently in nigeria (africa) for a 6 month DTS with YWAM (you can google that if you want more info). that is why i have not been blogging. i thought i’d have more access to a computer but i do not! just so everyone knows. i am learning a ton so it is great for my relationship with God. :D sorry for anyone who unfollowed or thinks i just have been lazy! i...
January 2012
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I'm an awful person
With great, great friends.
And an even more amazing God.
My favorite part of tonight had to be when Jon got to el callejon and sees me … Well lets be honest… drunk for the first time ever and goes “WHAT DID YOU DO TO HER?!?! What did you do?! I’ve known her since I was 5!!!”
Ah. That was my one drunk night ever. Been 21 for a week. Hopefully followers...
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Things that annoy me while packing for Africa
That my mom is forcing me to overpack.
When I complain, she tells me to stop whining.
She also won’t let me sleep.
I’m sick.
I don’t have much room.
But I’m still being forced to overpack.
Im sick of questions.
I’m sick of packing.
Everything my mom says,
God, please give me patience and love. Help me discern what to bring and what is useless. Help. This is...
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time to cut all my hair off
ok not really.
but i’m going to cut my own hair. don’t know where my razors are though :///
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
#ImGoingToAfricaForSixMonths #WhoNeedsThatMuchHairInAfrica?
You Never Marry the Right Person →
stephanieberbec:
How our culture misunderstands compatibility.
Talk + Walk: ELLESPEAK'S FREE GIVEAWAY #1 →
ellespeak:
OK, here’s the deal. I am not a pack-rat or anything, but I do sometimes buy stuff in excess, or I buy things with the intention of using it, and then never actually use it because I am busy with something else. I also have a ton of gently used stuff that I could totally put on ebay or Craigslist,…
I like this idea.
writing letters to my friends
i hope this is an OK christmas present. belated. but hopefully they will like these.
i feel like it is so lame. but i am putting a lot of thoughts into them. i meant to say thoughts, not thought. like, a lot of my thoughts in my head are going into these letters :P.
i love my friends so much. i wish i could show them.
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that awkward new years when i get tipsy for the...
the general agreement is that i am a affectionate, loving and needy drunk. (but i wasn’t drunk. maybe i’d have a massive mood change after that one more drink).
it’s super weird to wake up and see an empty bottle of some type of alcohol sitting on my dresser because i was too lazy to walk it into the kitchen the night before. i feel like a crazy drunk when i’m not at all.
...
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down by blink 182
reminds me of sitting in my freshman year history class and crying about my first ever ex-boyfriend, who i broke up with that morning.
and my friend cameron walks up to me and i take out my earphones.
and he asked me what i was listening to
so i showed him
and he rolled his eyes and told me if i was going to be crying, it should be something besides blink 182 and that they aren’t sad...
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i got rid of your jacket this week
my mom saw it in the massive goodwill pile we store in the living room.
she asked me if it was hard to get rid of your jacket.
i told her, truthfully, no. it wasn’t. i hadn’t been wearing it often by that point and i knew there was no way i would ever wear it again. it’d feel wrong.
i cannot believe you are married.
and i cannot believe i sent you a drunk text. good thing...
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“When God wants to change the world, he doesn’t send in the tanks. He sends in...”
– N.T. Wright (via firstbreath90)
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Things A Person Is Not →
A person is not a character. You can’t know their motivation. You can’t cut out the bits that don’t fit just to simplify their story (he wants to get the girl, she wants to get the job, he would rather be right than kind). They won’t follow the script you wrote or serve as a vehicle to prove your point. They might not grow, they might not help you grow and there won’t always be a tidy resolution,...
Of Dust and Nations: A Rant on the Sexualization... →
cynthiavankleeck:
This is another rant, but it’s on a worthwhile topic. While browsing the Yahoo articles that are posted on their home page, I came across a list of 10 fashion trends for kids that will hopefully disappear in 2012. The list was atrocious, with everything from string bikinis for toddlers to sexy…
authorunknown11 asked: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! :) Hope it was a blessed one!
A youth pastor once told me
You don’t need to search for a boy or run after a boy. That’s not how you find him. All you gotta do is aim for God and start running. Soon, you’ll notice someone else running beside you, maybe even faster than you. That’s who you’ll want to go for.
One of the wisest things I’ve ever heard.
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2011 taught me that I can get over the strongest...
Im no longer worried about heartbreak until I’m married.
If a love doesn’t love me back, I will heal.
If a serious relationship ends, I will heal.
It may take time and it will really hurt.
But healing is not impossible from heartbreak like this.
Betrayal will always have its wounds in my life. Being taken advantage of will always have me questioning others.
But I’m...
superchecherish asked: Happy birthday! May God bless you more:)
Happy Birthday to me
:)
December 2011
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It just occured to me that my birthday is probably...
Oh.
That would make a lot of sense. Also why my dream last night was about him. And why he’s been obsessively on my mind the last few days.
Reasons/
- he always made a huge deal of my birthday. He even did last year when we were friends.
- my 15th, he called me at midnight and left a voicemail. People don’t call me exactly at midnight because it’s new years.. My boyfriend...
Dear person I told today
I don’t care if you tell everyone- just wait til I’m in Africa.
Please.
I don’t want this friendship to get destroyed before I leave.
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First 4 Days in Reflection Challenge - 2011
Day 1: A few things you will never forget in 2011.
- Late night talks with Jenni
- Food poisoning (ugh) AND Jenni taking care of me :)
- Weird/awkward/awesome Noelle times
- Not being able to get out of bed at APU for classes, feeling miserable
- Not 100% wanting to go back to Vista for the first time ever
- Laughing on the phone so hard with Serena that I cried for the first time ever
-...
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2011 Reflection Challenge
mmmeggit:
kimberlyjane: Day 1: A few things you will never forget in 2011. Day 2: Relationship(s). Day 3: The best day. Day 4: The worst day. Day 5: The most memorable moment. Day 6: Your best friend(s). Day 7: Your birthday. Day 8: The funnest getaway. Day 9: The end of last school year/the beginning of this one. Day 10: New Year resolutions.
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DEAR ABBY: My marriage has been on the rocks since 2008, when I caught my husband talking to other girls online. He swore he would never do it again and I trusted him, only for it to happen again and again. We have a 2-year-old and I’m pregnant with our second child.
He has now placed another ad online stating that he’s a single dad. I am torn. He keeps telling me he loves me and...
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There have been so many people who have said my...
But no voice so precious as Yours.
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A Poet Defined (But Not Really) - A Poem (If You...
I am a poet. And I find it frightening that there are those who do not understanding the meaning of poetry – those who write words without meaning, those who write words and claim it to be poetry but … Read More
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Becoming the person that the person you're looking...
This post is inspired by Andy Stanly’s dating sermons.
Dear Beloved Future Husband,
Right now, I don’t think you would like me. If we met, I mean. Because… you want me to be honest? Of course you do. I don’t read my Bible everyday even though I really want to. And when I’m not walking super close with God… like when He is just in the back of my mind, here is...
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YOU GUYS I'M ALMOST 21 YEARS OLD WHAT DOES THIS...
i feel old.
this is like the one birthday where it is super annoying to be older than 90% of your friends.
i mean.
happy birthday to me.
my computer is broken so i can’t make blog posts which is super annoying :( i’ve been journaling, guys.
i hope i can update this when i am in nigeria! prayers please! i’m so scared to go suddenly. i’m so scared i won’t get...
If you could offer a newborn child only one piece...
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Amazingly useful
“If abortion is merely about woman’s rights, then where were mine? There was not...”
– Gianna Jessen (via abideinhislove)
If i could sleep all day and be awake all night…
I’d have no social life or schooling….
But I’d write the best novels you’ve ever seen
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Nigerian Christmas bombings
Making me terrified out of my mind even though it isn’t super close to where I’ll be.
Kcool.
:(
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This Christmas I sat out on a swing outside...
It was a sunny day and I was sipping a cold Starbucks drink in a t-shirt and PJ pants, barefoot.
San Diego countyhas weird a Christmas season. But I love it. Love love love it. This is the only December I know.
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My mom's weight is considered obese
But she is beautiful.
I’m not sorry that she has higher values than being hot.
I’m not sorry she works her ass off 8-5 without a break besides lunch (getting to work early and ALWAYS staying late) instead of sneaking out early to go the gym.
I’m not sorry she would rather spend money on her kids than a gym membership and organic food.
I’m not sorry that she tries to be...
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Love for yourself does not come when you reach a goal weight. Love for yourself starts now, today. You won’t take care of yourself to “love yourself later” but you will take care of yourself when you love yourself. You are beautiful if you wear a size 24W or a size 0. You are beautiful even when people call you names. You are beautiful even when people say you are not. You are...
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GUYS I GOT A 4.0!!! IN COLLEGE!!!!
I have never gotten straight As my whole life!
And I only got a 4.0 my sophomore year of high school (somehow both semesters… despite having different grades. it was very strange and i probably only should have had it one semester. anyway)
YAAAAYYYY!!!
*me dancing around in happiness*
yeah yeah.
uh huh. uh huh. yeah yeah.
the best semester ive had in college thus far is a 3.3 GPA but...
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Best Text Since My Birthday
Me: What's wrong with me?! Why do I have so many feelings for such terrible guys? Why don't I fall for good guys? Why do i fall for manipulation and lies? Why am I so messed up?
Natalie (@natikker): NOTHING is wrong with you. Each of those BOYS did something to hurt you, whether it was physical, mental, emotional, etc. Not the other way around. They messed with your heart. One day a MAN fully invested in God will be filled with JOY to call you his wife. You are BEAUTIFUL and LOVED. Don't forget that :)